Birthday

As if I need a reminder
That you still exist
If only out of sight
Really was the equivalent
Of out of mind
And out of heart
Your name hijacks my calendar
And electronic reminders clog my email
In case I could’ve forgotten
Today is your birthday.
Remember last year?
When you said we’d meet
After you saw your friends
And you again let me down
And were nowhere to be found?
You were never found.
Never around.
Never loved me enough
Until I told you to disappear for good.