It isn’t the negativity which you project

It’s the careless way you toss it about

Towards people’s heads

With no regards

That you may have just

Broke their heart

That makes me wonder

Who you have become

It makes my heart hollow

And my eyes moist

As my ears ring

With others views of you

And I rush to defend

Unsure why

When you no longer want

Me by your side.  

Cage

You sit
Stuck in a rut
Like a rat in a cage
Too lazy to jump out of the wheel to nowhere
You spin
Because at least then
the world revolves solely around you
And you don't have to pretend
That you care about anyone else
Or their feelings
Or a conversation that doesn't
Directly affect you
God forbid there be a valid world
Outside your cage of denial.

***When you run to the end of the Earth for love and it doesn’t work out, maybe it just means you’re about to explore a new universe.***

Crevice

I refuse to be stagnant
Caught in a crevice of content
I will not be held down
Or buried under your love
I will climb and excel
And beat the odds
I am strong
And soon I will be free.

Zombie

My ring should be there
But it cannot be worn
My life has been shredded, tattered and torn
I can’t wear my love
On a finger for you
After the things you have chosen to do
I woke up one morning
And lost all that I loved
And I’m finding forgiveness is just too tough
I walk like a zombie
I’m so dead inside
To know that our love and our life is a lie
Don’t tell me you’re sorry
Your words have no meaning
Just let me go so I can try to stop this bleeding
And somehow move on
And regain my life
I can no longer trust you and I can’t be your wife.

Stand strong

You can cut up your fucking victim card
We’re not running that special any longer
What you’ve done has nothing to do with his death
So stop whispering his name as if it will make me soft
And forgive what you have done to me
Out of love for him
And the friendship I thought we shared
There is no amount of excuses, sickness
Or addictions that can make this okay
One second, that’s all I wanted,
For you to be accountable
Just for once
Didn’t I deserve that from you?
Hadn’t I stood strong by your side
When the rest of the world had left?
And now I find myself as the one that is alone
Because I trusted those that I loved
And thought they were of the same loyalties as I
But we are nothing alike
I will not beg and cry and plead for pity
I will not flash my vulnerabilities for love
You may not be capable
But I, I will stand strong on my own.

Dark ice

Tainted and deserted
I cannot bare to walk past the threshold
Of forgiveness
Or our house
Which you have ruined
Turned to dark ice
This could never be home again.