Little sister

I remember

You with your blonde curls

And blue eyes

Staring up at me

Wishing I would guide

And teach you

Everything I knew

I remember

Being too busy

To be bothered with a little sister

Until you were no longer there

And no longer cared

What I was up to

And I watched you forge

A path on your own

Strong and true

And then all I wanted

Was to learn from you. 

twisted

Twisted

Like metal in an F-5

Wrapped around what I used to be

And what the elements of life

Have molded me into

Different than I began

But each day

I am stronger

It isn’t the negativity which you project

It’s the careless way you toss it about

Towards people’s heads

With no regards

That you may have just

Broke their heart

That makes me wonder

Who you have become

It makes my heart hollow

And my eyes moist

As my ears ring

With others views of you

And I rush to defend

Unsure why

When you no longer want

Me by your side.  

Cage

You sit
Stuck in a rut
Like a rat in a cage
Too lazy to jump out of the wheel to nowhere
You spin
Because at least then
the world revolves solely around you
And you don't have to pretend
That you care about anyone else
Or their feelings
Or a conversation that doesn't
Directly affect you
God forbid there be a valid world
Outside your cage of denial.

***When you run to the end of the Earth for love and it doesn’t work out, maybe it just means you’re about to explore a new universe.***

Crevice

I refuse to be stagnant
Caught in a crevice of content
I will not be held down
Or buried under your love
I will climb and excel
And beat the odds
I am strong
And soon I will be free.

Zombie

My ring should be there
But it cannot be worn
My life has been shredded, tattered and torn
I can’t wear my love
On a finger for you
After the things you have chosen to do
I woke up one morning
And lost all that I loved
And I’m finding forgiveness is just too tough
I walk like a zombie
I’m so dead inside
To know that our love and our life is a lie
Don’t tell me you’re sorry
Your words have no meaning
Just let me go so I can try to stop this bleeding
And somehow move on
And regain my life
I can no longer trust you and I can’t be your wife.